Broken to Beautiful: A New Beginning
"But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31 NLT
"But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles. They will run and not get tired, they walk and don't lag behind." Isaiah 40:31 Message
Waiting on the Lord has never been my strength and even though I accepted the Lord into my heart 6 years ago, He is still working on that part of my heart just as much as He was then.
It has been a while since I have poured my heart our in writing and so much has happened in my life. Here is the quick break down of what God has done in my life:
1. I got married to the amazing man from Match.com. He proposed after 2 years and we are about to celebrate our 2 year wedding anniversary in November. (insert a loud EEEEKKK! here)
2. We bought a gorgeous house in Katy, Texas and have been so blessed by the love that has brought into our home by family and friends.
3. We switch church campuses and have really felt the Lord working through our church and in our lives.
4. We have developed and grown in some amazing friendships and really feel as though the Lord orchestrated these friendships at just the right point in our walk.
5. I began a career in teaching in 2013 and my husband switched industries after the oil and gas industry was not the nicest to him. The Lord has certainly been working on our hearts and trust in Him during this time.
As you can see, the Lord has been at work in my life and some amazing blessings and promises have come from these past couple years. But as I re-read through the list one thing is missing and that one things breaks my heart and pains me to my very core... a baby. As most of my close friends and family know I want to be a mom.I want to be a mom more than anything in this world.
Children are a blessing from God. It says in Psalm 127:3 "Children are a gift from the Lord; they are reward from him." I want that reward. I want that blessing from Him more than I can even express through words. But my timing is not right. His timing is what we have to wait on. Waiting on His timing is a struggle for me. As I write this, I am having a difficult time putting this specific struggle into words. I trust the Lord with all my heart (Proverbs 3:5-6), but this, this specific dream is one of the most difficult to give to Him for many women. Some women have it in their nature to want to be a mom. It's an urge that cannot be controlled and an urge that really cannot be explained. It's a feeling that lies in our hearts, our minds, and our souls.
I love the way the Message transcribes Psalm 127:3 " Don't you see that children are God's best gift? Wow... God's best gift? A child is God's best gift. The yearning for motherhood is unfathomable. The yearning for God's best gift for you is indescribable.
Why do I write this? I write this because I know I am not alone and I want other women to know they are not alone in the longing, this waiting, and this need to trust in the Lord as they wait for something that is A BLESSING from God. I know I am not alone in questioning God during this waiting.
1. Am I meant to have children?
2. When will that day come?
3. How long do I have to wait? I'm getting older.
4. What do I do in the waiting?
Wait can we do in the waiting? We can be on our knees, pray, and ask for God's will in our lives to come to fruition in His timing. Is all of that easy? No. Will this process make the pain of waiting an easier? No. This process is not easy, but it is necessary. I heard a wise pastor named Jeremy Foster, say one time, "We have to go through the process to get to the promise." We have a promise waiting at the end of this process we are going through. The process can be any length of time depending on whether or not the Lord believes we are ready for the promise. He does not want to give us this promise until we are ready for it. I am holding on to His promises daily, but that does not mean I still do not struggle every day with the waiting and the longing to become a mom. I long, more than anything, to be able to hold my own baby boy or girl and not just a friends little one (and do not get me wrong my friends, I love love love holding your sweet babies!). I long to change a diaper, to get up at 2:00 AM to a crying little one who just wants to eat and be held by their mommy, to be the one that can comfort them when no one else can. My body physically aches to have that moment of seeing the double pink line, to yell for my husband, to surprise my mom, dad, and sister, to have morning sickness, for my back and feet to ache, to have stretch marks, to take new pictures every week of my growing belly... I know I'm strange, but I WANT THOSE THINGS MORE THAN YOU KNOW!
Are you waiting on something? It might not be a baby, but it might be a job, a husband or wife, a house, a friendship, something or anything that you feel the Lord has promised you. All I can tell you to do is do what I have been doing daily, praying! Be on your knees in prayer everyday. Write your prayers down, circle them and pray continuously for those prayers until they are answered. The Lord wants to answer your prayers. It says in Mark 11:24, "I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you've received it, it will be yours." I love the Message version as well, "That's why I urge you to prayer for absolutely everything, ranging from small to large. Include everything as you embrace this God-life, and you'll get God's everything. (bolding is mine).
You can pray big and powerful prayers to God and He will listen to those prayers. He wants to give to more than you ask for. "God can do anything, you know - far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dream!" Ephesians 3:20. He wants to blow your wildest dreams out of the water and blow your mind.
My question for you, what is your dream? What do you want more than anything in the world? What is your prayer? I challenge you to dream big and pray hard for those dreams. Pray through the doubt, the fear, the pain, the uncertainty, the negative voices. Our God can handle your fears, doubt, pain, uncertainty, and negative voices, in fact, He wants to! I will be praying for you my friends.
For Him and For His Glory!
"But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles. They will run and not get tired, they walk and don't lag behind." Isaiah 40:31 Message
Waiting on the Lord has never been my strength and even though I accepted the Lord into my heart 6 years ago, He is still working on that part of my heart just as much as He was then.
It has been a while since I have poured my heart our in writing and so much has happened in my life. Here is the quick break down of what God has done in my life:
1. I got married to the amazing man from Match.com. He proposed after 2 years and we are about to celebrate our 2 year wedding anniversary in November. (insert a loud EEEEKKK! here)
2. We bought a gorgeous house in Katy, Texas and have been so blessed by the love that has brought into our home by family and friends.
3. We switch church campuses and have really felt the Lord working through our church and in our lives.
4. We have developed and grown in some amazing friendships and really feel as though the Lord orchestrated these friendships at just the right point in our walk.
5. I began a career in teaching in 2013 and my husband switched industries after the oil and gas industry was not the nicest to him. The Lord has certainly been working on our hearts and trust in Him during this time.
As you can see, the Lord has been at work in my life and some amazing blessings and promises have come from these past couple years. But as I re-read through the list one thing is missing and that one things breaks my heart and pains me to my very core... a baby. As most of my close friends and family know I want to be a mom.I want to be a mom more than anything in this world.
Children are a blessing from God. It says in Psalm 127:3 "Children are a gift from the Lord; they are reward from him." I want that reward. I want that blessing from Him more than I can even express through words. But my timing is not right. His timing is what we have to wait on. Waiting on His timing is a struggle for me. As I write this, I am having a difficult time putting this specific struggle into words. I trust the Lord with all my heart (Proverbs 3:5-6), but this, this specific dream is one of the most difficult to give to Him for many women. Some women have it in their nature to want to be a mom. It's an urge that cannot be controlled and an urge that really cannot be explained. It's a feeling that lies in our hearts, our minds, and our souls.
I love the way the Message transcribes Psalm 127:3 " Don't you see that children are God's best gift? Wow... God's best gift? A child is God's best gift. The yearning for motherhood is unfathomable. The yearning for God's best gift for you is indescribable.
Why do I write this? I write this because I know I am not alone and I want other women to know they are not alone in the longing, this waiting, and this need to trust in the Lord as they wait for something that is A BLESSING from God. I know I am not alone in questioning God during this waiting.
1. Am I meant to have children?
2. When will that day come?
3. How long do I have to wait? I'm getting older.
4. What do I do in the waiting?
Wait can we do in the waiting? We can be on our knees, pray, and ask for God's will in our lives to come to fruition in His timing. Is all of that easy? No. Will this process make the pain of waiting an easier? No. This process is not easy, but it is necessary. I heard a wise pastor named Jeremy Foster, say one time, "We have to go through the process to get to the promise." We have a promise waiting at the end of this process we are going through. The process can be any length of time depending on whether or not the Lord believes we are ready for the promise. He does not want to give us this promise until we are ready for it. I am holding on to His promises daily, but that does not mean I still do not struggle every day with the waiting and the longing to become a mom. I long, more than anything, to be able to hold my own baby boy or girl and not just a friends little one (and do not get me wrong my friends, I love love love holding your sweet babies!). I long to change a diaper, to get up at 2:00 AM to a crying little one who just wants to eat and be held by their mommy, to be the one that can comfort them when no one else can. My body physically aches to have that moment of seeing the double pink line, to yell for my husband, to surprise my mom, dad, and sister, to have morning sickness, for my back and feet to ache, to have stretch marks, to take new pictures every week of my growing belly... I know I'm strange, but I WANT THOSE THINGS MORE THAN YOU KNOW!
Are you waiting on something? It might not be a baby, but it might be a job, a husband or wife, a house, a friendship, something or anything that you feel the Lord has promised you. All I can tell you to do is do what I have been doing daily, praying! Be on your knees in prayer everyday. Write your prayers down, circle them and pray continuously for those prayers until they are answered. The Lord wants to answer your prayers. It says in Mark 11:24, "I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you've received it, it will be yours." I love the Message version as well, "That's why I urge you to prayer for absolutely everything, ranging from small to large. Include everything as you embrace this God-life, and you'll get God's everything. (bolding is mine).
You can pray big and powerful prayers to God and He will listen to those prayers. He wants to give to more than you ask for. "God can do anything, you know - far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dream!" Ephesians 3:20. He wants to blow your wildest dreams out of the water and blow your mind.
My question for you, what is your dream? What do you want more than anything in the world? What is your prayer? I challenge you to dream big and pray hard for those dreams. Pray through the doubt, the fear, the pain, the uncertainty, the negative voices. Our God can handle your fears, doubt, pain, uncertainty, and negative voices, in fact, He wants to! I will be praying for you my friends.
For Him and For His Glory!
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